“A wise child accepts a parent’s discipline; a mocker refuses to listen to correction.”
Proverbs 13:1 NLT
At the age of 26 I was accomplishing things that I had set out as goals in my early 20’s.I was reaching a nice peak in my career and for a brief second it felt nice. However, this feeling was quick to fade. I was so focused on trying to find my identity and success in my job/career and fit into a lifestyle that I had out grown and ended up getting so lost in it.
Then I began to see myself struggle. Traits and skills that I deeply identified with were no longer as strong as they were before. My attention to detail and listening skills seemed to have temporarily disappear. I was underperforming in my dream job to which I thought I was completely ready for. So yes, I began to panic. These two traits were, what I thought, made me…me. Then one day all the mistake I had done during my training period caught up and I lost my job. This was such a crushing moment for my spirit but I knew there was a lesson to be learnt.
The weeks leading up to that day and a few weeks after were crucial to me. Something in my head was shouting to pay attention to the signs and pray to be able to understand God’s message. I was literally meeting new people, talking to friends, watching videos, going to meet ups, church services that were all telling me that the only place I would be able to find my true purpose and identity was by placing God first in my life. To surrender to all the worldly ideas that I had of love and success and to let God direct me in the path I needed to be on to be able to discover me and grow with Him. To receive a consistent message through all these different settings and avenues was not a coincidence.
So this is where I find myself today and that is surrendering. I am surrendering all the things that were or have been enslaving me. God knew that he needed to pause my life for me to be able to see and understand that I was made for something greater and to pursue it. I was born with a voice and I need to use it boldly to bring glory to him. That, my dear, is exactly what I will be doing. Follow me to see this bold chic surrender and realign her life with the man upstairs and know that we are always forgiven. I am far from perfect but I know he loves me and is for me.