Learning to Surrender 

“A wise child accepts a parent’s discipline; a mocker refuses to listen to correction.”

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭13:1‬ ‭NLT‬‬

At the age of 26 I was accomplishing things that I had set out as goals in my early 20’s.I was reaching a nice peak in my career and for a brief second it felt nice. However, this feeling was quick to fade. I was so focused on trying to find my identity and success in my job/career and fit into a lifestyle that I had out grown and ended up getting so lost in it.

Then I began to see myself struggle. Traits and skills that I deeply identified with were no longer as strong as they were before. My attention to detail and listening skills seemed to have temporarily disappear. I was underperforming in my dream job to which I thought I was completely  ready for. So yes, I began to panic. These two traits were, what I thought, made me…me. Then one day all the mistake I had done during my training period caught up and I lost my job. This was such a crushing moment for my spirit but I knew there was a lesson to be learnt.

Photo by Christin Hume on Unsplash
Photo by Christin Hume on Unsplash

The weeks leading up to that day and a few weeks after were crucial to me. Something in my head was shouting to pay attention to the signs and pray to be able to understand God’s message. I was literally meeting new people, talking to friends, watching videos, going to meet ups, church services that were all telling me that the only place I would be able to find my true purpose and identity was by placing God first in my life. To surrender to all the worldly ideas that I had of love and success and to let God direct me in the path I needed to be on to be able to discover me and grow with Him. To receive a consistent message through all these different settings and avenues was not a coincidence.


So this is where I find myself today and that is surrendering. I am surrendering all the things that were or have been enslaving me. God knew that he needed to pause my life for me to be able to see and understand that I was made for something greater and to pursue it. I was born with a voice and I need to use it boldly to bring glory to him. That, my dear, is exactly what I will be doing. Follow me to see this bold chic surrender and realign her life with the man upstairs and know that we are always forgiven. I am far from perfect but I know he loves me and is for me.


Chasing freedom devotional day 1/30

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“Jesus replied, “Very truly I tell you, everyone who sins is a slave to sin. Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”‭‭ -John‬ ‭8:34-36

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So I just started a 30 day devotional book titled “Dare to be Devoted” by Natalie Grant and Charlotte Gambill. I will be sharing a few notes from the book and my personal take on what the message is telling me. I am learning the word, love, and touch from God so I can pass down the good word of the Lord to others. What a great way to start this than God himself daring us to be free.  Continue reading “Chasing freedom devotional day 1/30”

Convos & Coffee night with Bianca Juarez Olthoff 

Last night the beautiful Bianca Juarez Olthoff gathered women of all backgrounds, ethnicities, skin color, and from different cities throughout LA, OC, and Riverside county to meet and chat with her at Honors Coffee Raosters in Newport Beach, CA. She wanted to remind us that no matter what phase we are in life that we mustn’t give up. We are a process similar to Champagne and that God is preparing us. I was lucky enough to get invited by my lovely godly women and share this moment with them as we grow and chase God together.

Bianca used her platform to discuss topics that are revelent to young women today. She talked about work/life balance, dating, mentorship,  career, and the word of God. Continue reading “Convos & Coffee night with Bianca Juarez Olthoff “